I have always dealt with insecurities from my childhood. Feelings of abandonment, lack of acceptance and love. In my 30’s I had many ups and downs. From the outside everything looked perfect about my life and my family, but on the inside things were spiraling out of control. I was masquerading and pretending to others, and myself that everything was okay, when it was not.
I wasn’t happy. I didn’t know who I really was outside of being a father and a husband. My hopes and goals for myself had become dreams deferred. I allowed others to put their limitations on me and I reverted to playing small and hiding out from what I really wanted in life.
Then my house of cards came tumbling down, I ended up in a nasty divorce, going through depression, and trying to figure out where to live and how I was going to continue to be a great father to my sons. It was my low of lows.
Here’s the thing. I wanted to change through it all, but I just couldn’t make myself do it. The smallest things felt impossible to me. I read books, got counseling and nothing stuck. I prayed for clarity and it never came. Then it all clicked for me. For the past decade I had been like a sponge into personal development and self growth, but it wasn’t until I got to the end of myself, that everything became clear for me. Crystal clear. Then I went through a process of awakening, remembering an honing in on who I was, what I wanted and how I was going to get and achieve. It was me, but only better!
Have you ever felt lost, confused or stuck? I was unsure of how to connect the dots between my dreams and my current reality. I was so frustrated because I knew what I wanted, but I didn’t know how to get it. I am an ambitious person, but my lack of direction and confidence was holding me back, big time!
Then I had my ah-ha moment. I heard someone say in a video “why settle for anything other than amazing” and it was like my mindset had just did a software update and rebooted. Then I had the crazy idea. Why would I settle? I deserve better! I deserve more!
I know I’m here to make a difference in people’s lives and in the world. I know I want to do something that matters. I’m ready to take every area of my life to the next level. I’m ready for a better mindset, better habits, and a better life for myself. How about you?